Out Loud

It’s kind of funny how fast your mood can change. You feel stuck and in the rut of sadness but then the simplest smile could turn you around. It can be the tiniest thing that can turn that frown upside down. Today for instance it was the kind words of an amazing friend and listening to my man, Michael Jackson. It’s the little things in life and I love it.

Maybe never feeling good enough is just a part of life that I have to accept. That this feeling may always linger but I can’t let it hold me back from being happy. Because I don’t know if there is a cure for this unpleasant feeling…all I know is that I have so much to be happy for, but even that can’t make me feel better. It’s frustrating…

Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope everyone has a wonderful day on this very happy day. Cherish every moment, and don’t take anything for granted. Remember your family and friends and that this day is really all about love and Jesus.

MERRY CHRISTMAS <3

Life is crazy, and you never know what is going to happen. It has its highs and its lows. Sometimes it may feel there are a lot more lows…but there really aren’t. Just being able to live I consider a huge blessing. The great times I have, the wonderful people I meet, the love I feel…it is all worth those frequent down times. Maybe life is hard and the obstacles seem to be impassable, but if life is easy then what’s the point. Life being hard gives us the chance to grow, to see things in a different light, to be able to discover ourselves and the truth. 

Life is crazy…but I wouldn’t want it any other way.

Have you ever felt lonely? Have you ever felt like you are on the outside looking in? Like life is this big party and you weren’t invited. You want to be invited though…you crave it, yearn for it with all your might. You may be insecure with yourself and you feel like it is your fault that you weren’t invited to the party…but the truth is you are beautiful. Look into the mirror every day and tell yourself that. You can go to that party if you want to…heck, it’s calling to you. Don’t hold yourself back, you can do it…we all can.

We all have that one place where we are just happy. Maybe we have a couple places like that…maybe we are still searching for that place. I though I’m not completely sure where I fit in I feel like I fit in at my school, family, friends, and music. I feel so lucky to have those places because something about them just click with me. I don’t when I’m there is suddenly all makes sense, like “Oh, this is why life is so great.”

But even so sometimes you can’t help to feel a but lonely. Well at least I feel lonely sometimes. I hate those moods…you kinda forget what is important, and become self centered but sad. It’s not a good mind set to be in. I know this yet I find myself falling into those moods frequently…I feel selfish a lot because of it…because I just looked at my life and in reality it is so great. I have the best friends in the world that keep me going, my family who supports me, a school where I wake up in the morning and its worth it, and music which makes me the happiest girl in the world.

Maybe just maybe though we fall into the moods to finally make us see what we have. We lose it in a sense and then realize…”wow…I have a great life.” Getting out of those moods is the best feeling in the world, and I’m just reminded about how much I love life and I don’t want to let it pass me by.

Ok so. That whole 30 days thing wasn’t working out. I just couldn’t keep up with it is..soo yea screw it. K…that is all.